Oh hey, I'm back

Hi there,
It's been eight months. I've forgiven myself enough, I think, to get back to this. And even if I haven't completely forgiven myself, I'm going to have to keep moving forward.

Whatever weight it is I lost after the efforts listed in the previous posts here, it is no longer off my body. I gained back the pounds I dropped. And, of course, it took another round of rejection, to get my shit together and motivate me to get in shape.

My new favorite trick? Drinking a 20oz triple shot latte for breakfast, and then a 16oz whey protein shake for lunch. I'm slowly getting my stomach back down to normal size, by starving a little. This is usually the first thing I have to do. Starve a little. It doesn't help with the weight loss, but it stops the wild fire which is my appetite when I'm depressed.

Next step is going back to the gym. I'm excited. :)
I'm not as excited to stop drinking beer. But it has to happen.

I just set myself back to June 2011 for a real goal date of 150 for a real goal weight. 1 year, ~60 pounds. If I keep backsliding, I'll never get done here. (That statement pertains to more than just my weight.) I have to keep going. I felt so amazing when I was working out before. Stronger, faster, better. I want that again. I'm pumped.